Am i a freak, or does anyone else do this? Why do i do this?

Question

Am i a freak, or does anyone else do this? Why do i do this?
i often find that, when im on the verge of being very low, i will feed my depression, for example by searching for questions on here to do with self harm or suicide, so that i then become very depressed. i withdraw myself further into my dark little world. why do i do this? does anyone else?

Answer

I think that it is normal for depression It is hard being stuck in a mid way place Bring it on ! seems liek a good idea at the tiem there is a point in clockwise when John cleese dressed in amonks habit and lying in a ditch with a fourteen year old girl says quotDespair I can cope with its the hope I cannot take!quot brbrus humans crave certainty and control being in a midway state is difficult and if we dont have the wherewithal to get up down is better.Also in all the flux of what is happening to us some measure of control is neccessary.brbrRemember that everything that you are going through isbrstanding oyu in good stead for the future. We have ot learn about ourselves map our dark places and you are already doign this well by asking and being honest with yourself.brSo no not a freak goign thourhg a very hard tiem and doing the best oyu can It does help each tiem we go through these dark place we learn a bit more about how to come through easier.